I have a million thoughts running through my head at a million miles per hour right about now. It's hard to truly delve into it all at once, but I might as well try - considering nobody is going to be reading this (I mean come on, I am sure people have better things to do than sit around and read my blogs) Then again... people do somehow like Twitter. So I could be wrong.
Anyway, enough with the random sidenotes, and back to what I was saying.
Lots of things have taken place within a viably short amount of time recently. Some good things, some not too good. One thing in particular is really bothering me. It's been eating away at me for quite some time now, in fact. I have nobody to go to with it except my boyfriend since, well, it concerns him completely - in every aspect.
I am extremely concerned about what my future holds. I have decided to not return to college spring semester of 2010; rather, I will be looking everywhere for a full time job so I can pay off my mammoth-sized heap of debt in a quicker period of time.
This makes me even more self-conscious than I usually am, on account of the feeling that I'll be falling behind everyone else.
Then again, I'd only be missing out on one semester. I suppose there wouldn't be that much catching up to do... would there?
Ugh.
So, so much on my plate right now.
It's a ridiculously unthinkable amount of stress.
Right now, when I try looking down the road to see what my future holds, I see emptiness and sadness. I have no purpose in life right now. No idea what I want to do with myself, or where I'll end up.
I just need to hope for the best. Right now, that's about all I really can do.
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